Things getting nasty now, feeling what am i going to do this holiday? Hmm.. should i just continue what am i suppose to do and let go all sad things, or just be who i really want to be? Hmmm.. thinking through the night, life is tough for me right now, now the night is only the time for me to take a deep breath and make my moody better, still finding ways of making my mind busy, playing games is a good way, but this way will are just temporary maybe for 1 or 2 hours? play basketball is kinda good idea too, while playing for me is just one thought, how to get points.. xD it's really care free there. Now, i don't know what to do, every holidays there is sure something to happen, bad, i should before i act, well, going to plan a gathering too, for those 6m and 6u primary school students, good right? everyone is invite. =) 2:30am in the morning, still awake, received sad msgs just now, don't know what to do or say, just follow what words my mind appears, bad isn't it? My mind was damn blank. Shit myself, even just simple convince words also cant say anything. She apologise for her irresponsible act, but for me, it's over. Those feeling are way gone forever, now i just will appreciate those friends around me, the only thing i can do is to maintain what am i having now, although i have lost more then gaining this fking year!! grrrr hate this year, This year isn't me, isn't what am i suppose to be! Should have serious to many things around me, now i had lost so much then i regretted and it is already too late.
Words are down at
2:39am
Hoping to change to a better person in life.
Hoping my friends are back by my side.
Hoping to maintain everything now.
Appreciating my friends around me.
Do what i am suppose to do. Now! Sleep. xD
And i'm only allowed to WAIT for her to act. T.T
Friends and Darlings, i love you all. =)
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